One thing that frequently happens on this diet is that people lose hope. I’ve watched blogger after blogger give up, and when I tell my friends about 4HB many tell me that it sounds impossible. The truth is: 4 hour body is incredibly limiting. It’s not for everyone… but stick with it long enough and you will lose weight.
That said, I’m having mixed feelings about something that I discovered today. This whole time, the diet has been easier because I’ve been living with my very supportive boyfriend, Aaron. Aaron is 6’0, 152lbs, and is at 11% body fat; he doesn’t need to lose weight. He has been eating pretty much what I have for the past 54 days… or so I thought. Today he told me that he has been munching on cookie dough.
I shouldn’t be upset about this. Aaron is at a very healthy weight and doesn’t need to be on the diet; he’s only doing it to support me and because he gained a little weight last semester (he has room to gain a lot more). I didn’t force him onto the diet, but I told him that 4HB was how I was going to change my lifestyle, and he could participate if he wanted to. Obviously he chose to partake.
Which brings us back to the cookie dough. I had believed all this time that I wasn’t the only one suffering through six days of the week. Part of it is that I’m jealous. I’m not a naturally skinny person so I know that if I began cheating on the diet, it would spiral out of control. Plus, cookie dough is something that I’ve consistently had on cheat day; it’s one of my favorite foods. Finally, I’m nervous that Aaron will start cheating more and more, and eventually get off the diet. It is much easier to live this way when you’re living with someone else doing it too.
Part of me feels like a huge jerk. It’s just a scoop of cookie dough, and I was completely content not knowing before Aaron chose to tell me. I think my negative reaction is mostly my anxiety getting a hold of me. I’m beginning to wonder: is anyone else doing 4HB with a spouse or loved one? How does the relationship play into the diet?
Food for today: